Since I'm still in the starting position with this blog, I won't saturate it with details of my childhood just yet. Instead, I'll express my current feelings and thoughts. Which brings me to my next topic: what exactly does a "girl" have to do to fit in with the boys? How do I, in my female body, get the other guys to see me as who I really am on the inside? Beats me. Guys are, generally, not so good with the "put yourself in the other person's shoes" thing compared to most girls, so they tend to be a bit more narrow-minded and less accepting. This is a problem for me since I'm 5'2, laid back, somewhat gentle, and have a thing for pop music.Unless I start punching people spontaneously, putting all my effort into "getting laid", stuffing my face to the point of regurgitating(fancy word for "puking") and farting in public(which actually doesn't bother me because I've already done it), they ain't gonna let me into their precious "Man-Club". What's a "Man-Club"? Its a place where nobody feels pain EVER, everybody can eat an unlimited amount of food, everybody can lift 3 times their own weight, and the president of the club is Chuck Norris.
So what can I do to get in? Well, I could become a body builder, date a model, expand my stomach, and only listen to rap or heavy metal. The real question is: Do I WANT to get in? The answer is: Not if it'll cost me myself. If I have to disguise myself in order to "fit in", it's not worth it. Besides, I've already spent my life being different, why not do it to the maximum? Why not truly express myself? It's about time the world saw a different shade of gray. Yes, my mission from now on shall be to preserve my true self no matter what. I will be a computer-loving, video game-playing, Gaga-loving, goofy DORK.
Stay frosty.
9/18/2010
9/17/2010
In the words of the Lady herself: I was BORN THIS WAY
Many people think being gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender or transsexual is a choice or a lifestyle. Well, I honestly don't remember being given the choice or waking up one day and thinking "Hmm, I think I'll become a "freak" in the eyes of society and suffer the rest of my life". Nope, doesn't ring a bell. What does ring a bell however, is being different from all the other little girls as a child. Never wanting "pink" things, loving going to get a haircut as short as possible, playing with the boys, preferring Hotwheels toy cars over Barbies. Now how do you explain that? You can't, it just is. Still think that was a choice? How about biological facts, like how my voice has always been deeper than most girls', or how I've got facial hair WITHOUT hormone treatment. How are those things a choice? I'm not trying to impose anything on anyone or convert anybody to anything. I'm simply saying I DID NOT CHOOSE to be transsexual, I DID NOT CHOOSE to be born in the wrong body. The only choice I made was to stand up for myself and not let anybody tell me I'm worth less than anybody else. That choice I do remember making.
Another more recent choice was to pursue my dream of being a comedian/actor with an ultimate goal of having my own show. Why? Many reasons, but one of the more important reasons is because I want to help others like me. If I can make it, I can use my voice to reach out and help. Someday, somehow, I know I'll make it, even if I have to wear a meat dress to get people to notice. Hopefully, it won't come to that but that is exactly why I feel inspired by Lady Gaga. She's very talented but she doesn't just sit back and enjoy the fame, she helps others through her music and her actions. I hope one day I could reach that point and inspire others to find their voice.
So again, in the words of the Lady herself: I WAS BORN THIS WAY.
Stay frosty.
Another more recent choice was to pursue my dream of being a comedian/actor with an ultimate goal of having my own show. Why? Many reasons, but one of the more important reasons is because I want to help others like me. If I can make it, I can use my voice to reach out and help. Someday, somehow, I know I'll make it, even if I have to wear a meat dress to get people to notice. Hopefully, it won't come to that but that is exactly why I feel inspired by Lady Gaga. She's very talented but she doesn't just sit back and enjoy the fame, she helps others through her music and her actions. I hope one day I could reach that point and inspire others to find their voice.
So again, in the words of the Lady herself: I WAS BORN THIS WAY.
Stay frosty.
Hello freaks, weirdos, abominations...and "normal" people!
Hello, my name is..in this profile so let's move it along. As you can guess from the title of the blog, I am a transsexual although I'm not exactly a "teen" anymore but it was better than naming it "Confessions of a Young Adult Who Happens to be Transsexual". "What is a transsexual?", you say? Well, it's a person who's gender doesn't match their sex and usually undergo surgery to correct it. Gender is "between the ears" and sex is "between the legs". I, for example, was born in a female body but identify as male. Get it? If not, Google it(smile).
The reasons for creating this blog and sharing such personal things is because (a)I want to reach out to others in my situation and maybe help them feel like they're not alone or crazy (b)I also feel the need to express myself, and (c)I enjoy shocking people in order to open their eyes(and trust me, I fully intend to do so through this blog so help me God...and hopefully GaGa). Being transsexual is about as easy as running a mile with Chewbacca chained to your back. Yes, I said Chewbacca. Maybe I exaggerated a bit there. Judge for yourself: imagine feeling exactly the way you feel right now, being attracted to men/women except you being born in the opposite sex's body. It sucks, right? That's what I, and thousands of others around the world, experience EVERY single day. You can't turn it off like a TV and you can't ignore it like Paris Hilton ignores underpants. It's serious enough to conflict with daily activities such as: going to the supermarket, going out in public for any reason, making friends, finding jobs, etc. Even the name experts gave it sounds horrible: GENDER DYSPHORIA.I don't know about you but anything with the word DYSPHORIA makes me wanna hide in the closet(no pun intended).
Since this is my first post, I just wanted to give a short, simple introduction into being trans. For my next posts I will share more personal things and experiences as I continue my journey into the not-so-unknown.
Stay frosty.
The reasons for creating this blog and sharing such personal things is because (a)I want to reach out to others in my situation and maybe help them feel like they're not alone or crazy (b)I also feel the need to express myself, and (c)I enjoy shocking people in order to open their eyes(and trust me, I fully intend to do so through this blog so help me God...and hopefully GaGa). Being transsexual is about as easy as running a mile with Chewbacca chained to your back. Yes, I said Chewbacca. Maybe I exaggerated a bit there. Judge for yourself: imagine feeling exactly the way you feel right now, being attracted to men/women except you being born in the opposite sex's body. It sucks, right? That's what I, and thousands of others around the world, experience EVERY single day. You can't turn it off like a TV and you can't ignore it like Paris Hilton ignores underpants. It's serious enough to conflict with daily activities such as: going to the supermarket, going out in public for any reason, making friends, finding jobs, etc. Even the name experts gave it sounds horrible: GENDER DYSPHORIA.I don't know about you but anything with the word DYSPHORIA makes me wanna hide in the closet(no pun intended).
Since this is my first post, I just wanted to give a short, simple introduction into being trans. For my next posts I will share more personal things and experiences as I continue my journey into the not-so-unknown.
Stay frosty.
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